have a little faith

its been a few days since my last post. its not even that nothing happens between postings but i just feel i have to have a strong sense of purpose to write something. and today is that day. i've been having dreams about the one young man i just know i'm going to marry. anyway he's been in my dreams a lot lately and as i've said before, its been stated that if people show up in your dreams then they are thinking about you. i always thought it was b/c they were on your mind but i guess that can make sense. either way he's always in the back of my mind and i just know he's going to break soon enough. lol.

he continues to be in my dreams in some form. i'm ok though. its just not time to call him mine yet.

*update* this young man ended up texting me a week later. haha.

Everyone wants their 15 minutes

So i just read an article of a grandmother trying out to be a Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader. i've read stories like this before. unfortunatly in today's society, grandmothers aren't what they used to be. when i think of grandma, i think of older lady that knits or something. Now don't get me wrong, i think its great that some grandmother and even grandfathers are still out there doing their thang but grandmothers are just not what they used to be. Grandmothers today are more and more becoming only 10's and 20 years older than their grandchildren! Look around. how many teenage and early 20's parents do you see these days? how many of those children's parents are probably in their 30's or early 40's? Maybe i'm just bitter b/c i'm 27 and don't have any prospects and will be one of those older mothers that i never wanted to be. but the lady in question i am talking about is 55, blonde, fit, and has 2 grandchildren. does she look old? yeah. like any other older white lady that tries to hold on to their youth for as long as they can. the article stated that she wanted to tryout when she was 22 but lack of money, costume, and childcare prevented her from doing so. So she still had dreams she wanted to accomplish but had kids instead. oops.

with that said there was another link at the bottom of the article about a Youtube quarterback. so someone posted a video of themselves online throwing a football and got a tryout for an NFL team? this brings me to my next gripe. what happened to hardwork? going out and seeking face to face interaction and the struggle? thats the problem with music today. to many "artists" are found online and reality shows rather than singing in front of train stations, airports, coffee shops, and talent shows. no longer is it necessary to work for something you really want b/c there are so many other avenues of being discovered.

The world has become to technilogical and it makes me sad. nothing is simple and kids under the age of 15 no anything about what life was like without cell phones, ipods, internet, hi tech video games, and good movies/music/cartoons.

I miss the days of simplicity,