Praise it i'm back!

*waves* hey to those that don't read this. haha. i got locked out of my account and just now figured out the correct password combination.

anyway, so much has happened since my last post.  i am proud to say i am still in love more than ever with a certain person. and its not the 18 year old :). he still has a piece of my heart but another piece has gone to someone else. it has now been over a year since our twisted relationship has began and i wouldn't change it for anything. our relationship is as complicated as it gets and i'm not ashamed to be in it. we both wish things could be different but the timing just happens to be off at the moment. its just sad when 2 people want to be together but cant due to circumstances beyond their control.  it happens and people can judge it all they want but until they've been put in that situation it really is different. i used to say the same thing. that men that cheated were dogs and i would never fall into that kind of category. i admit, i am a hussy.  i know about the girlfriend yet i continue to do what i'm doing. ive decided i'm just going to live in the moment b/c their moment will come to an end. actually in reality they will probably end up married b/c he has gotten so far trapped into it that he can dig himself out anymore. 

feel free to judge, roll your eyes, call me a bitch but you don't want in my shoes or feel what i feel. you can't help who you fall for.

in other news, my laptop is back up and running.  i finally was able to purchase a new adapter for it and after a few hours of installing the updates from 3 months of not being used she's ready to be used again! she is definatly older b/c the battery doesn't hold up like it used to. i've had this computer for several years now though, since 2006 or 7 so i could use a new one but this one works just fine for my needs. i'm not in school and using it strictly for personal use.

i still hate my job and always looking for a new one! had an interview yesterday so lets hope i get it! a 3rd job wont be so bad!

ttfn!