Boots and Boys

Today i would like to talk about boys. this is a topic that i will speak of on more than one occation. so here goes. i like them young. i'm 26 but am in love with an 18 year old. my first kiss was when i was 24 and with an 18 year old. i just like my guys young. i get it honest with my grandmother and my mama. my parents were 7 years apart, granny was only a few months older than my gramps, and the same with my maternal grandparents. i'm a late bloomer in life so it shouldn't comes as a shock that i would like them young. i can relate to them better. it doesn't make me a bad person nor a predator. people tell me all the time that i need a man and find someone my age or older. um, thanks but they are no better! just b/c someone is older doesn't make them better that's for sure. on that note i will say i have no luck in the boyfriend department. my dad was always the man in my life. i just never felt the need to run out and have a boyfriend. he provided for me, call me old fashioned, and i had no real worries. don't get me wrong, i worked and hated taking money from him when he offered it and when i did ask for money it was very small amounts. i'm talking $20 or less. anyway, after he died i ventured into the land of boys!!!! my first kiss came the summer after he passed away. what a magical time before it went to hell. i am not one to regret and i don't. i could not have asked for a better first kiss. i thought wow, this is going to be an awesome summer. a week later it went to pot. that's what happens when you live in a smalltown and you're a hot guy with a reputation. needless to say he got what he wanted with a girl he'd been wanting for over a year. that relationship only lasted 2 months. i'm still friends with both of them to this day.

next guy to enter my life was his best friend. and let me tell ya, the work OOPS doesn't even begin to describe the next year of our lives. needless to say, that kid impacted my life more than anyone and i know he certainly didn't mean to do so. the guy after that is another doozy. why do guys already in relationships seem to fall so hard for me? i mean damn. if you aren't happy in your current relationship why drag them and the other girl along? i'm no saint and i'm not claiming to be but let me tell ya, don't use the excuse that you're young and not ready to settle down deter you from being happy in your current life! so what if the girl you want to be with could be your wife one day. be with her if that is what makes you happy NOW b/c one day she will be gone and you missed out. another guy i dealt with was totally different. all the above were white guys with dark hair and blue eyes. the last guy was total opposite. out of my usual zone but willing to give him a try. BIG.MISTAKE. lesson learned, never date a guy that breaks up with his girlfriend the day before. i mean it was evident that he liked me and probably had for quite some time. we'd known eachother for years but he screwed up any type of friendship later in life. i didn't even like him to begin with but was willing to give it a try only to be shafted once again! i'm defective.

so anyway, here we are. i'm in love with one guy and really close with another. here are my criteria of what i'm looking for:

Natural Born Male (lol)
Employed
Nonsmoker preferred (highly)
Attatchment free ( dramatic ex's, no children, no ex-wives, etc...)
Must have an appreciation for 90's music. and i'm talking about more than knowing a couple Nirvana songs
Have goals and aspirations.

are those too hard to have? while what i'm really attracted to are skinny white boys with dark hair and blue eyes, i am open to anyone that is attractive with a good personality. there are a couple guys at work that are very good looking, only one i would want to get to know better, but their personalities kill me. that's another posting though.

so there you have it. a little glimpse into my boy issues. nothing real exciting but what's important to me :)


anyway, and that is about as far as it goes with my experience with guys. had my first date at 21, first kiss at 24, and turned in my v-card at 25. and none of these guys were my boyfriends. lol.